Remembered for;

Something that i want to be remembered for is for my caring personality. I care so much about so many people in my life. Just for who they are or what they have done. I do anything to help them out. My family and friends mean the most to me. I would love to be remembered for this because its what makes me. When i help someone else out it makes me happy and keeps a smile on my face. I enjoy it so much. When i have my last dollar and a family member or friend needs it more than me i would give it to them. I love them so much and thats what i am all about.

Spring break;

My spring break was lazy and just flew by. I didn't do anything very exciting until the end of the week. I was job searching and car searching all week long which was not exciting. In the end of the week my family and i went to a indoor waterpark. I thought it was not going to be as exciting as it was, but it ended up to be. It was relaxing except i got the bad end of the deal and had to share a room with kids at the end of the night. It was a new experience because they had so many new things. I went down water slides with my little neices and just played games with all of them. It was a fun adventure, which made me not want to come home. I enjoyed every little bit of it, which topped my spring break at the end.

When i am stressed:

When i am Stressed i try to go to the gym and work out. Working out helps me relieve my fustration in a good way. It gives me encouragement to work even harder at losing weight. I push my self farther than usual. Also when stress i love to just try and talk it out because it usual leads to me getting sick and i really hate it. There are so many times where i was so stressed out i got tension headaches and stomach aches and i realized i just needed to let things go, because it was not good for my body. Writing is also a stress reliever when no one is there to talk to because it helps me be free and no one can see what i am writing unless it is on a blog like this.

What makes me laugh;

Something that makes me laugh is little kids, when there being silly i have no excuse but to just laugh because it is so funny. Another thing is just watching comedy videos on tv or on youtube. My friends get me into watching them to the point all i am doing is cracking up over it. I can say there is alot of things that make me laugh its just the randomness that really gets me. Just laughing is fun and helps keep me from crying through the bad or just makes my day better than what it was.

Little Miss Perfect;

So television show about little girls ages 1 and up in pageants. In my opinion bad idea. People on the show is spending thousands of dollars on dresses, hair, make up and even little fake teeth for these girls. i think it is insane to spend maximum amount of money on little girls. Kids grow up by the way they are taught. I think being in a pageant you will experiece alot of things. Little kids see that you need to be perfect in the things you do which is wrong. You don't have to be perfect to suceed ou just have to try and keep everything going. Aslong as you are doing your best i think everything will be ok. So little pageants like that is a little obsessive.

Not graduating till june:(

So there is a big drag, were not graduating til june. WHich is not the best ever. Im happy because it does not cut into my summer because i will be officially done with high school after sometime in may. Its getting very scary because there is only about 4 months left of high school. It is going to be hard saying goodbye to all the friends i made over the years due to some going away to college that are four hours away from here. I know there will be some people i will go off to college with and see again. real life is scaring me daily but i am ready for the challange and ready for what the road has ahead for me.

Snow day:

So i officially dislike the snow, first day was fun because i got to go play in it but the second day not so joyous. Its been windy all day long allowing me or my little neices not to go play in it. I love the winter but now im ready for the summer. I hope i don't graduate in june because im ready to be out of high school and be done with my teen life. Snow is beautiful but i love for it to be over, because it takes so much away. Snow days are fun because its time to catch on from homework and sleep in, bt now im rdy for school tomorrow.

So soon;

So soon im having a little neice arrive into my family. I want her to understand that she will be loved by a great family. We are so ready for her arrival because its some one new we get to teach. Some one that will have a whole life ahead of her with a fresh start. I can wait to show her the joys of this world.

Opposites attract?Regrets....

Okay i stand by my decision when i say opposites attract when it comes to men and women getting together yes opposites attract. Than a child and a gurdian bumps heads because they see two diffrent views. They don't match up, to equally. I experience my life with that. With my mom i bump heads because were so alike in so many ways. Than i move out and me and my sisters see each other on different levels. She see things as that you should move on and not look back. I move on but look back and wonder can i do something diffrent and make a change. I don't want to leave things on a bad note. I dont want to lose people who mean the most to me. In the end you might or might not regret it. If i ever left my mom on a bad note i would feel bad in the end because what would i ever do if she ever died, what would i do if she ever lended in the hospital on life support. I know i couldn't leave with myself. Her and i see each other on different levels. Shes says i need to catch up but i think she needs to realize. She says she see alot of girls and other people turn the back on there mom but my question is has she ever asked them have they ever regret it.....

Meeting my goal;

So a week a goal or so i set a goal to lose weight by prom and wear a strapless dress. Well i started to do tae-bo which is really a hard work out. I've been working out everyday this week and been sore every night from it.I just hope in april or may my hard work will pay off. This and losing 28 more lbs is my weightloss
goal. Wish me luck. :)

Trying new things

So this upcoming weekend im goin to experience going sledding, tubing and skiing. I have never done anything like this before.I am really ready to do it though. Just hope it want be freezing cold. It all sounds fun and a great new experience for 2010

Late to school;

So every time i leave for school I'm always leaving at the latest i can leave thinking i have everything. I'm usually on time for school even when i leave at 7:50 but this morning was completely backwards. I end up being late to school this morning based upon i could not find my keys. Which every morning i keep my keys either on the table or in my purse. This morning we realized my little niece had my keys last night but never put them back where they go. Knowing a little 3 year old mind once you go to bed, usally everything goes away from the night before. We searched up and down the stairs, the play room, and the couches. My keys were no where to be found. Finally my sister looked in her purses were the girls played dress up the night before and found them. We was like thank god, we was just running around like crazy looking for those keys and they end up being in a okay place. bad news i was late to school but thank god not to late.

Dear Momma;

Momma in the year 2009 we had our ups in downs. Idk if you know but i cried more tears in probably in any other year. I tried to stay so strong and handle my own but i couldn't do it any more. When i moved out, and moved in with my mentor i thought life was going to be better. I thought no more storms, that the rain would clear up and that everything would be so easy. I thought so wrong. So many things happend to me. I had a asthma attack, i fractured my wrist, i was sick and sick over and over again. I thought if somebody started paying for things that i needed it would take the stress off my shoulders. I was wrong again. The storm came stronger, it rained for days and days, months and months. I couldn't see straight anymore, thats when i realized i needed my mother. My momma to help me get out of my struggle. That money doesn't buy happiness, and that your always going to need your momma no matter what. I love and care for my mom so much more now than i have every in my life. I appreciate everything she has done for me. I need you by my side, i know i can be independent but i just need my moms love to keep that ongoing. I know now that my momma will always be my momma no matter how far she pushes me, no matter how hard i cry because im tired of it all, no matter how broke i am, or how broke she is. My momma will be that sunlight through the storm standing there in the end saying i love you and im your momma no matter what. <3

True Friends;

I went to a night service at my church, we singed and enjoyed each others company. Then my preacher preached. The ironic part about it he said this year make sure you have real friends in your life. I thought to myself, i do have some. He told us real friends are the friends who will push you when you want to give up. When your sick will help take care of you or drop by to say hi how are you doing. He preached on how friends our there in the hard times. I just listend and consumed all he was saying. He just preached on everything that me and my friends had talked about at the beginning of the year. I thought about the friends who have been there for me no matter what. When i was sick and struggling who had my back. When tears where rolling down my eyes who was there to comfort me. When i wanted to beat down somebody they stopped, and told me to ask myself ," is it worth it." My real friends had my back always. I love and thank them for it everyday, also thank god for blessing me with them.

what to come in 2010

Over the year of 2010 i see alot of things happening. I look forward to my little neice alaya being born soon. Than my living to see my 19th birthday in april. I also can't wait to be and official high school graduate and go off to college to better my career. I know this year is going to be filled with alot of new things, new experiences that i can't wait to enjoy. The one thing i know i made a promise is to try to put god first in my life always this year, because he has brought me through alot. I hope this year is great and be filled with new people and new loves.

Time for new beginnings...

My 2009 year was filled with drama, struggles, and, fun. I remember times that i had with friends. Celebrating my 18th birthday. I remember moving out of my moms house into my sisters because i needed a break. In 2009 i remember being sick alot for the first time, i mean i have never been so much in my life. I fractured my wrist for the first time in my life. I found peace with new friends, and left some old ones behind. I got my life back together with god and im ready to live for the future and see what 2010 has to offer me.