Something I always wanted;

Each christmas i found my self asking for the same thing. I ask for a kareoke machine. I don't know why but every year i saw it in the magazines and on the t.v commercials. I got one for christmas but i just always wanted something big and better. I always loved to sing and i just enjoyed doing it for fun. My mom was drove crazy by my first kareoke machine, so im guessing thats why she never bought me a second one.

My Christmas wish;

My christmas wish this year is to hopefully get my car fixed and money. Other than that im good. I like gettin the basic stuff like clothes, gift cards and w.e else they get me. Im not a person who wants alot for christmas and depends on getting alot. If im with my family then i am ok and doing good.

Santa Clause...

So the question is when did i stop believing in santa, my reply to that is i dont really know. I just think as i got older i just grew out of it. I used to stay wide awake waiting on santa, but i always fell asleep. As i got older i started to notice things. When we moved into our house one year my mom kept her door close all night long. My sisters and brother and I stayed up all night long to see if she would come out. We would come out of our rooms, check the tree and see if anything was under it and never was there anything. So we shut our door and be quiet, crack it every once in a while to see if she came out yet. The whole entire time we all knew that there was no santa clause an my mom had all of our presents in her room. We faked her out, most of the time but we knew that she knew because shes a mom.
I do believe in santa clause when it comes to the little kids because its a tradition. I know they say its wrong to do it, but its something that brings a smile to a little kids faces when they see that toy santa brought.

Csi

Everybody has there favorite T.V shows. I Love to watch Csi Sometimes when i can and have time to. Well came home the other night from work to sit down and watch Csi: with my sister and her husband. I was getting into because it was a new one. As you know sisters husband is a funeral director and knows about the body and what ever. Well i was freaked out about a part in the show he was like its not real. He started to described it to me and basically ruined my appetite and partially ruined the show for me.I learned my lesson

Bored;

Sitting in a study hall just bored. Most of the Homework i have is done so thought i write one of my blogs for englsh. Blogging is simple and fun to do at sometime. Then again you have to think about something to write about. It is some what easier to get prompts in class on what to write about. Then i would not have to think about what to write for a blog. Than again this is just another blog of something fresh off the head. Hope yah had fun reading itm thats all i have to say, goodbye :)

Rain;

When its raining outside automatically i think sleep. When its raining theres not alot to do. Its usually dark outside, and i want to relax and not do nothing. Sleep all day. Than relax and watch movies with my little neices. I feel bored, praying its a saturday so i can sleep.

Cast;

So i just recently got my cast off, which i am thankful for.
I realized a whole month with basically only use of your one hand is hard to do.
It took away alot of things i could do and slowed me down. I am very thankful to have it off now. Everything is somewhat going back to normal, or atleast almost everything. :D

My Luck

Last wednesday i was feeling good all day. I was in a good mood, and had a good day.
I have been conjested for about a week but it really got me that day for some reason. I was sneezing and coughing alot. Before i knew it later that night around 5 or 6 i was having trouble breathing. I was wheezing every breath i took. So my sister husband ran me to the e.r. They got me back there and i ended up getting a breathing treatment and chest x-ray. Just My luck i end up having a touch of bronchitis. It took me not being able to breathe to find out.

Lessoon learned

So today for the first time I let someone other than me drive my car. We had been driving all over Owensboro, so at this point I’m pretty comfortable with them driving my car. We are about to pull out of Denny’s parking lot and he didn’t look the opposite direction of where he was going so he started to pull out and almost slammed into the backside of an oncoming car. But stupid ole me let him keep on driving, so when we finally got back to his house he forgets to put the car into park when I am dropping him off at his house. So without noticing is I am having a conversation, and my car is pulling itself down his drive way….wow….

never again

So today at work there was a flood in the back. As you know I work in a ice cream shop. I’m the night shift manager and there is only another employee I work with. Sometimes we get really busy and forget what we were doing. Well one night I was running mop water in the bucket and forgot all about it when I had an order. Came back a couple minutes later and there was about an inch of water all over the back of the restaurant. It took both of us to clean it all up. That night we learn to turn things off and not to forget because than your going to pull a “jasmine” if you don’t.

Update;

So update on losing weight. At the end of September I lost 13 pounds. Which my doctor said that was great compared to what she thought I was going to lose. Now the end of October I have lost 6 more pounds totaling out to be 19 pounds lost all together. At first I thought It was impossible to lose weight for me, but it wasn’t. The main caused for just exercise, and watching what you eat. Anybody can do it just set your mind to it. This is just the beginning of my weight loss. My next goal is 13 pounds by the end of November. So wish me LUCK.

Senior year;

Senior year your last year in high school, the one year you wait all your life for is finally here.
When you first arrived i n high school its like wow im going from having one hall way full of teachers, to 2 or 3 hallways with 8 different teachers. Your world changes 360, things are a whole lot different but, you have a little bit more freedom. As the years go by you have less classes but also more stress. High school is some people last resort and last stop. Than to other it is just another beginning in life. As you make it through your freshman, sophmore and junor year you start to become a little older, and wiser. I took away many things from each year and it helped me along the way. When finally reached my senior year i was nervous as when i first started. This year is flying by fast and it feels like i just started. Im happy but, sad because ill be starting a whole other chapter in my life and saying goodbye to some good friends. I am proud to be apart of the class of 2010!!!

Gods giveth and god taketh away

In your lifetime you are given one body, one soul, one heart, one mind. I think god gives us that and tells us to live freely but also be careful with it because it's the only one you got. Everyday you hear about a friend or a relative dying and that person is gone but you are left with no memories. Thats the one thing you don't want is to pass away with no memories. My preacher has told me on a daily basis, life is all about living. You can still live for god but also make mistakes as long as you ask for forgiveness. I rather live my life make mistakes, and learn from them. Leave my mark on this earth and let everybody know what i did and who i am. When recently having many friends taking from students and myself it teaches me a lesson. Live life for you. Keep going and live it up. Because god gave us life but he also takes us away in a blink of an eye

You get what you deserve.

Parents talk an talk about working hard to get what you deserve. As a kid we would always say yea okay. Than now your at 16 and you eligible to get a real job. Or you in school and you have to work hard to get that good grade. I realize what my mom meant when she said you have to work hard. When you don't do anything that you might as well give in on life because there is no point. On a daily basis i work hard more than ever to get what i need to get. To get my grades up i study and work hard at it. When im at work, i get the job done and what ever else there is needed to be done to earn the money i am getting paid. Also when losing weight, you can't lose weight just sitting down 24/7. To get where you want to be in losing weight you have to work hard at it, and make goals. I thank my mom for telling me to work hard. I may have not listened in the past but, im listening now. In the end i love the results that things have given me, and what all my hard work has paid off to become.

Is Love Blind?

Love is blind. Often people never realize what is in front of their eyes. Many people look up and down the world for that special someone. They never realize that while there looking in the high and low places that the one that want is in front of them, but there never realize. We all know in the end that the one you searched for was right around the corner from you. As you get older you realize love an life. In the end of it all you realize you have gone through many of girls or many of guys and that they all was not what you wanted. But hopefully somewhere in the end you find happiness with that special someone.

Second familys;

Many people talk about have they have a 2nd mom or a 2nd dad. Well i have a second family. Ever since i was around 6 or 7 i have had a mentor/ big sister, from the big brother little brother/big sister little sister program. Which has been about 13 years now since ive been in it. My Mentor/ Sisters' family basically has adopted me into there family. When i have problems or needing help with anything i couldn't go to my mom about or if it was with her they were there. Im involved with every thing my sisters family goes through. I care about them as much as they care for me. I love them to death and will do anything. I think of myself as lucky to have a second family that love and cares for me.

Leaders;

For people to be a leader you don't have to be great but, you have to show encouragement. In a leader i look for someone who has been there done that. I have great leaders in my life who have been through hardships and has overcome them. They show me things in life that they have been through, showing me that you can take the easy way out but you get so little in the end. Telling me to choose the hard road, you work hard to get what you want and, in the end it works out the way you want it.

Battle with weight

Over the year my life hasn't been all perfect and great. Ever since i was little i was a plus size girl and still am, but over the years i have had problems. I've learned that i was borderline diabetic at what point and could have had a stroke at the age of 14. Than as i gotten older i have had other health issues. Some has gotten better but than as i got older some got worse. Now im going to change that and lose the weight. Yes i have always been a girl saying your size is beautiful no matter what size it is. I love being plus size but, learning that it can put me in a early grave or on medication the rest of my life isn't. I want to lose the weight for me. So i have my goal set for the month which is 8lbs and i plan on losing that. Im going to work my best at it to complete my goal by the time i graduate and get down to a healthier weight, Just wish me luck. :)

Family

My mother means everything to me even though it doesn't seem like it, she does. She is the person that gave me life and showed me right from wrong. I know that everything she did was to teach me a lesson and responsibility in life. Which i do not have no regret in. I will always love her and she will always be the one i love. I look upon her because her life was not easy and was a struggle.
I am a child of 8 kids. I have 6 sisters and one brother. I am some what you would say the middle child. 3 of my sisters are half but i considered them full. One of my little sisters passed away when i was young but she will always be apart of my life. My siblings are are all apart of my life i would not be here if it wasn't for them. They kept me afloat in life. Both my Oldest sister and brother are in college and they show me guidance on where to go in life. I take there mistakes and learn from them along making my own and showing my little sisters what not to do.

Realizing life;

So basically from age 16 to now i realized life is not easy. You live for years and years depending on your mother to take care of you and sometimes take it for granted. Than that magical age appear when you can somewhat support yourself and your happy. I thought that 16 was going to be great. That i could finally get a job, spend my money the way i wanted to spend it but than my view changed couple months after that. I have realized that i had to buy my own clothes, shoes, personal needs and my mom was going to stop doing most of it. As my aged progress i was paying for a whole lot more than i expected. I thought from age 16-18 that life would be easy but it wasn't. I felt like an adult minus paying some bills and buying all food. From that i knew that i have growned up but not fully, i just knew from than on life was not going to be the way i expected it to be.